when I was older (inspired by Roma)

Inspired by Alfonso Cuarón's film Roma, this track is less a traditional song than a sonic meditation, drifting on waves of heavily processed vocals and ambient textures that evoke both ocean water and amniotic fluid. The production is cavernous — reverb stretches each whispered phrase into infinity, while low-frequency drones pulse beneath like a heartbeat heard from underwater. Billie's voice is layered, multiplied, and submerged until it becomes more texture than melody, as if she's singing from the bottom of a swimming pool. The emotional territory is vast and nonspecific: loss, memory, the way time distorts when you're grieving or dreaming. There are references to water throughout — not the violent, crashing kind but the still, deep, suffocating variety that pulls you down gently. The song channels the film's themes of quiet endurance and invisible labor, translating Roma's black-and-white visual poetry into grayscale sound. It represents Billie at her most experimental and least commercial, a seventeen-year-old reaching toward art-pop ambition that recalls Björk or Radiohead's more aquatic moments. This is music for staring out of rain-streaked windows on long train rides, for the hypnagogic drift between waking and sleep, for those rare moments when sadness feels not painful but profound and almost sacred.